Ce top model témoigne sur la période où elle se privait de manger

 

Si le fait que les plus grands top models sont souvent proie à des difficultés alimentaires au vu des attentes irréalistes que placent sur leurs épaules les marques de haute couture est relativement admis, il demeure assez rare que l’une d’entre elles finisse par s’extirper de ce système, pour finir par le dénoncer. C’est pourtant le cas de Liza Golden Real, un top model parmi les plus prometteuses il y a encore quelques années. 

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A little flashback Friday action for you. This caption will be long and won't fit, so if you'd like to read please find the rest in the comment section….The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush…but after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own. I thought to myself, I can still be this thin, but I'll just eat a little more so I don't feel so horrible. Well, eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge. I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career. I made it through NYFW okay, no one had noticed any weight gain, but by the time I had gotten the LFW I could see the pounds starting to show both in the mirror and on the measuring tape, but I kept quiet obviously not wanting to sabotage myself. I found myself going to the grocery store and picking up raw vegetables to try and make up for the near two week binge I had in NY, but I didn't see any weight coming off no matter how "healthy" I was eating and no matter how many workouts I fit in. MFW came and I knew I was bigger and by bigger I mean a 35.5in hip rather than the 34.5in hip I started with in NY, I played it cool and just pretended everything was normal. I did end up booking shows, Dolce & Gabbana being one of them. Which I afterwards received online criticism about my thighs looking fat…Anyways PFW came about, and I found it impossible to resist those chocolate croissants 🙊 I went on many a casting with one exclusive option being on my schedule, but after meeting the client I knew the reason for me not nailing the gig, my size…

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Comme elle nous le montre sur son compte Instagram, la différence qu’ont fait ces quelques années, c’est son acception d’elle-même et les changements qu’ont subi son corps lorsqu’elle a décidé d’arrêter de se soumettre aux attentes déplacées de ses employeurs. Elle s’explique : « À gauche c’était moi au début du sommet de ma carrière. Ma première vraie fashion week où je faisais la taille que je devais faire. J’étais prise sur des shows incroyables où d’autres ne rêvaient même pas d’al­ler, je défi­lais avec des filles que je voyais [dans des maga­zines] avant, c’était une vraie montée d’adré­na­li­ne… Mais après m’être évanouie une nuit dans mon appar­te­ment alors que je prépa­rais un de mes plats spécial basses calo­ries (je crois que c’était 20 morceaux d’eda­mame [une fève de soja japo­naise, ndlr] si je me souviens bien), j’ai décidé d’ar­rê­ter le régime et les entraî­ne­ments qu’on m’im­po­sait et j’ai décidé de le faire à ma manière. Je me disais, je pouvais toujours être mince, mais je vais manger juste un peu plus comme ça je ne me senti­rais pas mal. »

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I can't believe that this time next week I will be in London, working. Last year this time, I had just gotten married and been enjoying all our wedding celebrations with friends. I never planned on starting to work again. I never thought I would be able to face the industry I had been in for so long, but felt I had failed at so incredibly. But then out of the blue one day, I found myself saying, "okay, this is it, you can do it again, focus, diet strictly, and workout like a beast so you can get that body back and get back to working." You know how it goes, it takes you 3+ months to get in shape, but takes you just a week to start losing that perfect muscle tone you have been working so hard on. It's quite frustrating. All I ever wanted was to be a naturally small girl. Naturally thin. The girls who were just BORN for this shit. They were born to fit in every damn thing perfectly. God how many years I wished that upon myself. But then I realised, that would never be me, I would never be the size 0-2 girl who can just be that way without having to slave away at it… I have come to terms with it and accepted it as you may have noticed in my previous posts. I have moved on from the obsession of fitting into the standard perfect model mould. And I have decided to make my own mould, my own shape, my own personal being. Again, I know I am not perfect. I am not perfect physically, mentally, or emotionally. I am really not sure WHO is. I have been through my trials and tribulations, where I really just lost hope in myself, life, and the world… But I would like to share with you that even the most broken and imperfect people can see the light at the end of the tunnel. One day, somehow, there is always hope for a positive outcome in each and every one of our lives. Photo credit: @thirdeyejedi #newbeginnings #positivevibes #loveyourself #riseabove #bodypositive #effyourbeautystandards #thisisme

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Incapable de continuer sur cette lancée, elle poursuit : « En fait, manger un peu plus s’est vite trans­formé en englou­tir un sachet d’amandes, puis à manger des repas complets puis en pure bâfre­rie. Je mangeais tout ce que vous pouvez imagi­ner et je me jetais sur tout alors même que je savais que j’étais à un tour­nant de ma carrière. « 

Finissant par troquer la nourriture de basse qualité et lesdites baffreries, il lui faudra deux ans pour retrouver un équilibre alimentaire. Devant les refus trop nombreux lors des castings, « Un jour je me suis juste dis : « Pourquoi je me bats contre mon corps ? » Pourquoi ne pas aller dans son sens ? Arrê­ter de me faire violence et juste écou­ter mon corps ». » Aujourd’hui mannequin avec des formes, on lui souhaite tout le succès imaginable ! 

Publié par Odilon Duval Robert le 16 Avr 2017
 
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